Current mood:	depressed
Current music:	blindside---silence

kill me slowly mY dearest only

It is sunday the 25th i believe n this is an update of me n my weekend (which i still have one more day of)

FRIDAY: i finally spent some time w/ my dearest friend ever ms/ stephanie garcia...we watched brotherhood of the wolf ..it was me .moms. steph. drew n her uncle..it was a good movie even tho steph cant ever keep her mouth shut durin nethin ..i mean liek even if she is sitin there watchin n all shell still go ..wat happend?..who was that ...lol..i lve her so much n it is so funny seein her jump from bugs..hehe

SAT: it was supposed to be me spendin basically  the whole day w/ my boy but i ended up gettin side tracked by runnin errands w/ moms n then my okd friend aron called me so i went to chil w/ him for a bit i havent seem him in a couple of months ..it was really cool..i love spendin time w/ him.it was liek bak in the day just chillen n beatin the crap out of eachother n listenin to al of his awsome stories..(my bedtime storys..better than ne fairy tale shit..rofl)...we watched scarface then we ended up at bens (aka god..lol) the i went to meet rob at his friends cris's house ..which  by the way im never takin a cab ne where again..A) they r way too much money B)they r fukin insane people those drivers they r ...lol..but i had an awsome time w/ them we went to this awsome work place that cris got a job at (which btw i am jeaouls of cuz its so coool)..i got some wicked stuff to make pery thingys w/..yay..we had chinesen i went home..::sad::..P>

SUNDAY:i spent the day w/ pops bro n cliffy in the city..we went for breakfast n then to the fleamarket n i bought some wicked shiot bitch.hehe i love my style it kiks ass ...then we went to dean n daluca had awsome coffee n desserts...n ofcourse the day would be shit w/ out a trip to st.marks place..yay ..i bought a new pair of kiks at trash..which took me 20 pairs to go thru to find one that they actually have my size in ..lol..n an awsome pair of old cop shades..so hot n wat i would like to cal..if i may..lol..emo glasses..i look sexi in em..sat in some traffic ..cme home played w/ my godies n called rob..showerd n went to go n met him ..chilled w. him n chris again n wnet to park for a bit ...came home n now im writtin in this..

wel al in all i would say i had an awsome weekend..but im depressed

i dont know why..al i wanna do is cry n sleep ...i dont ever wanna leave my room again ..all i wanna do is slepe n cry n make perty cut marks all over me body

i need to se teddy soon ..he told me he cut his hair i need to see..i spoke to him today he called me today n sat night also ..he was liek wat is this since wen did u get friends i was liek umm its all make believe..i can play cant i ..lol...he was liek ure goin on a date rnt u n ure not telin me ..im like noo teddy im not n if i was wat u jealous..he said yea...but i know he is only kiddin w/ me..god he is great i need to see himn talk to him like now ..i must become undepressed

i wana die i wanna die i wanna die i wanna die i wanna die i wanna die.....i wana hang myself or shoot myself rite tween the eyes or od on nethinn everytihnin slit my wrist n fal soundly aslep in a nice bath never to wake up.....thats it my wait for cancer has been to long its time to take matters into my own hands n do this the rite way...finaly i wil have peace

hopefully this is just a faze..

bloody kisses <3roxi<3